h zwh einai ena puzzle...

apo mikri akouga gia neraides ,gia omorfes prigkipises ,gia prigkipopoula ,gia tis pio omorfes kai pio demenes filies tou kosmou.....oso megalwna pisteua oti tha mporesw na brw auto pou psaxnw amesws tha to prosexw amesws tha tou xamogelasw k tha to kerdisw...mou fainete pws mallon megalwsa lathos...

ftanw se auth thn hlikia kai skeftomai ma einai sobara pragmata auta pou skeftese ??

pou tha breis auto ton prigkipa pou tha sou klepsei thn thn kardia amesws tha diaikdikisei kathe kommati tis zwhs sou tha se prostatepsei ....tha se agkaliasei stis duskoles stigmes kai tha se taxidepsei mesa stis skepseis tou....

pou na bgiskete autos o anthrwpos otan ola guro sou gkremizonte mesa s k tha s dwsei to xeri na sikwtheis na mhn lugiseis ,na fwnakseis dunata xwris na ntrapeis mprosta sta blemmata twn allwn..

poso tha ithela enan anthrwpo dipla m na me boithisei sta megala auta bhmata tis zwhs na me steilei ston 7 ourano me mia tou kinhsh na einai eilikrineis kai oti exei na sou pei na sto pei eksw apo ta dontia .....na se filaei k esu na taxideueis me magika nhsia na ginese ena me tis dikes tou skepseis na ksupnas kai na exeis ena gluko prwino me ta filia tou !na zeis kathe stigmh san na einai prwti kai teleutaia omws na ksereis oti kati tha teleiwsei omws i epithumia na to ksana ziseis na sou dinei mia magiki energeia na xamogelas...

kleinw ta matia m kai skeftomai auth thn magikh stigmh alla panta anarotiemai an mou aksizei kati tetoio an tha mporesw na brw auto to anthrwpo pou tha me frontizei , pou tha thelei san trelos na einai mazi mou oxi giati to thelw egw alla giati to thelei autos...

poso polu tha ithela autos o anthrwpos na m edine th dunami na xamogelaw kathe mera na perimenw me anipomonesia na ton dw na me blepei kai na me pernei agkalia kai na mhn m afinei ....exw akousei toses fores poso monadikh me thewroun omws kanenas den mou to apedeikse me prakseis na mou pei auto to kanw gia esena....giati to aksizeis....

kai ftanw na skeftomai poso asimanti noiwthw ...pws tipota den tha gurisei na m apodeiksei oti estw kai ligo aksizw kati....

anarwtiemai orismenes fores ti anthrwpos eimai an ontws auta pou thewrw oti mou aksizoun na einai pragmatikotita i eimai apla mia fantazmenei pou zitaw kapoies stigmes prosoxis....

pote den to katalaba auto to pragma to mono pragma pou kserw sthn zwh mou einai oti o anthrwpos pou tha me parei agkalia otan ton xreiastw ,pou tha me filisei se mia stigmi pou den tha to perimenw, o anthrwpos pou tha m dilwsei poso trelenete gia emena poso ksexwristes kai poso magikes einai oi stigmes pou zoume mazi tha tou xarisw ton ourano oloklirw tha ton stolisw me to fws tws asteriwn kai tha tou kanw dwro to feggari giati exw anagki enan tetoio anthrwpo na sumplhrwnei tis plhges mou ,na zwntaneuei thn xara mou ma panw apo ola me mia tou leksi na me kanei eutuxismeni....

H ZWH EINAI ENA PUZZLE kapoia kommatia einai mikra k kapoia megala kapoia ta briskeis eukola kai ta sumplirwneis omws einai kai kapoia kommatia pou duskola ta briskeis mesa se tosa ekkatomuria kommatakia puzzle.....egw tha ftixw auto to puzzle kapoia stigmh kai i eikona tou tha einai autos o enas kai monadikos.....!!!

matia mou gluka...

poso omorfa mporoun auta ta matia na zwgrafisoun ena xamogelo sta xeili...ti trufero sunesthima dimiourgite otan ta matia milame apo mona tous....

kathos ta matia sou periergazontai ton kosmo i skepsi mou taksideuei dimiourgontas apories aragie ti na skeftete me auta pou blepei....

ma panw apo ola ta matia einai i arxi tou erwta kai metepita i sunexeia tis agapis me ta matia tis psuxis mou agapaw auto to gluko xamogelo kai me ta idia auta matia noiwthw pws agapaw olo ton kosmo...bebaia ta matia tis psuxis einai metaforika alla den peirazei....

perpataw ston dromo kathimerinos kai enno oi psuxes tn anthrwpwn menoun adraneis ta matia paizoun koitane apo edw koitane apo ekei....

poso sumantika einai ta matia se enan anthrwpo...me ta matia sou tha deis gia prwti fora tn anthrwpo pou tha agapas mia zwi,me ta matia tha deis na pernane apo mprosta s oi pio eutuxismenes alla kai pio dustixismenes meres tis zwis sou kai auta ta matia tha sou deiksoun telika oti ekanes to swsto....

kleinw ta matia kai fantazomai tin stigmi pou tha ton parw kapoion stin agkalia m kai tha dw tn omorfoteri kinisi na anoigei kapoios tin agkalia tou kai egw na xamogelaw san mikro koritsaki...me ta matia mou tha dw na sximatizonte sta xeili tous i leksi sagapaw apo tous anthrwpous ppou poli tous agapw kai me ta matia tha doume an stin sousia to pseutiko einai alithino ,i to kalo stin ousia einai kako....

kleise ta matia sou,sou exw mia ekpliksi ax ti omorfo sunaisthima posi agwnia sximatizete stin psuxi mou otan m to lene....kai posi xara den mporeis na perigrapseis ekeini tin stigmi...fernontas ena paradeigma mias poli kalis mou filis otan t agori tis irthe kai tis ekane eklpiksi bebaia dn mporousa na tis pw kleise ta matia sou ,sou exw mia eklipsi alla thelw na epikentrofo sta dakrua tis eutuxias stin xara ton matiwn tis otan antikrise ton anthrwpo pou agapaei....<3

kai pws mia matia tis xwris na mou milisei pou edwse na katalabw poso poli xarike pou sunergastika mazi tou gia na tis dimiourgisw auti tn xara....

den thelw omws na sas deiksw mesa apo tis skepseis mou mono tin kali pleura ....

tha aneferthw kai sto mati pou gennaei kakia ,pou dimiourgei zileia ,pou pligwnei tn egwismo kai tapinoni tin psuxi....to blemma tis adiaforias ...

ekeini tn stigmi ta matia klaine ,ta matia ponane ,ta dakria kulane kai i stigmi pagwnei....i alitheia einai oti klaiw suxna giati eimai poli euaisthiti kai kathe ti mikro m kanei na klapsw me prokali na ponesw....

kai panta thimamai tin gagiaka mou na mou leei min klais allo tha teleiwsoun ta dakrua sou den leipase t matakia s?

omorfa matia ,gluko trufero blemma,o kathreutis tis psuxis mas....koitaw stin thalassa ekei makria kai kleinontas ta matia dimiourgo auta pou thelw kai den exw ,auta pou eixa kai exasa kai milaw eleuthera stin psuxi mou .zwgrafizw me ena pinelo mes stin kardia moy ta oneira mou....

oneira i pragmatikotita?

otan imaste mikroi akolouthoume ton dromo twn megalwn bebaia imaste anthrwpoi kai etsi den mporoume na to katalaboume alla fantastite ena mikro paradeigma mia mama papia kai ta papakia tis na tin akolouthoun se kathe bima tis...xexexe...kai epanerxomai sto thema mas...

megalwnontas arxizoume na kanoume auto pou thewroume emeis swsto stin arxi distaktika rotontas ligo apo edw ligo apo ekei prospathoume na ikanopoiisoume tis anagkes mas...

omws ti ginete otan pleon ksepername auto to stadio otan menoume monoi mas kai prepei na mpoume stin diadikasia tis epilogis na akolouthisoume tin logiki i ta oneira mas...

proswpika polles fores exw skeftei na akolouthisw tin pragmatikotita(tin logiki) alla panta kati me stamataei einai kati mesa mou pou mou dinei dunami na pisteuw sta oneiro, me prokalei na riskarw ta panta kai na akolouthisw auto pou thelw egw...

ti omorfo sunaisthima na kleineis ta matia s kai na zwgrafizeis ta oneira sou poso eukolo einai na dimiourgeis enan kosmo diko sou exontas mono esu ta kleidia...

kai kanenas allos na min mporei na isxorisei ekei mesa...

mesa ston diko sou kosmo mporeis na kaneis auto pou polles fores kapoies peristaseis sto apagoreuoun...

ekei mesa mporeis na zwgrafiseis osa xamogela theleis ,na dimiourgiseis tis pio zestes kalimeres tou kosmou ,na tragoudiseis se ena dwmatio ta pio gluka sagapw tou kosmou....na agapiseis kai na agapitheis se kathe sou kinisei ..na klapseis gia kati pou den mporeis na apoktiseis...NA KLAPSEIS??? ma ti lew... se auto to kosmo tipota den mporei na dimiourgisei kristalina diamantia sta matia sou tipota den mporei na se stamatisei gia na ftaseis stin akri tou oneirou ,na taxidepseis stin pio krufi sou epithimia kai kanenas den mporei na sou klepsei auto pou esu me tin skepei sou mporeis na dimiourgiseis...kathe fora pou noiwthw moni zwntaneuw sto mualo mou anthrwpous pou an itan konta m kai tha mporousan na mou prosferoun mia glukia koubenta ma mexri na to skeftw exw idi xamogelasei kai egw brei dunami na pistepsw pws i monaksia isws polles fores einai i pio glukia parea,poses fores exw skeftei ax poso tha ithela na eixa dipla mou mia zesti agalia kai kleinw ta matia m kai skeftomai tis stigmes pou exw apothikeusi apo mia agkalia tou agoriou mou ,enws filou m,ma poso mallon tis oikogeneias mou...oneireuomai polles fores kai panta simaxos mou einai ta sxedia..agapaw tin stigmi pou ksaplwnw sto krebati mou kai skeftomai to spiti pou tha ftiaksw kapote,latreuw tin stigmi pou sinantaw sto dromo mou mia oikogeneia me xamogela pou exoun mikroi megali kai skeftomai pws tha ithela egw na einai i oikogeneia mou ...latreuw na paizw sto dromo me ta skulakia kai na kanw sxedia gia to poso paixnidiariko tha einai to diko mou skulaki pou tha apoktisw argotera...

kai ta oneira mou sunexizonte gia tin douleia pou tha exw megalwnontas an to afentiko mou tha einai austiro i sumpathitiko i mipws mporesws na kataferw na epibiwsw moni mou ston epaggelmtiko tomea...

oneira oneira oneira pantou...taxideuoun se olokliro ton kosmo kai gemizoun xamogela ton kosmou ..dinoun dunami se kathe anthrwpo kai pote den ta plirwneis pote den s einai baros....

bebaia gia tous realistes tis upothesis tha mporousa na sumfwnisw me kathe tous protasi den sas kribw oti exoun apoluto dikio alla i pragmatikotita sou dimiourgei ta perissotera problimata to 1 problima sto diplasiazei ...kai den s afinei na ziseis to twra ....

egrapsa auto to keimeno giati den gnwrizw akoma an einai kalutero na sunexisw t oneira pou mou kanoun suntrofia i an tha prepei na anoiksw tin porta tis pragmatikotitas...kai anarwtiemai an pote tha mporousa na sundiasw kai t duo mazi....

to aspro me to mauro mas kanoun to gkri ...ta oneira me tin pragmatikotita ti apotelesma mporei na mas bgalei ?

agapise me...

krata m to xeri sfixta k zise mazi m kathe mas oneiro na eisai dipla m na m exeis agkalia kai min fobasai....einai t logia p kathe fora tuligoun t oneira m ...einai t logia p epithimw n akousw apo tn anthrwpo p tha stathi dipla m isaksios kai tha t xarisw olou t kosmou tn xara gt tha t aksizei....

anarwtiemai polles fores pio t noima ts zwis an den exeis dipla s auto p anazitas....k otan t exeis gt dn t xrisimopoieis analoga....

dwse m tn xara t erwta taxidepseme mesa sta monaxika monopatia ts psuxis m....xamogela m k min m afiseis pote apo konta s...riksare t panta g emena san n eimai i prwti k i teleutaia uparksi s auto t planiti....tn diko s planiti...

min thewreis tipota dedomeno..gt t paixidi mporei n allaksei k kathe simademeno trapouloxarto n eksafanisti....riskaris na xaseis t paixnidi me kathe goulia apo t poto s...min tholoneis t mualo s skepsou monaxa pws tha mporeseis n m apodikseis poso eutuxismeni mporeis n m kaneis...

arxizw k siniditopoio oti otan kt dn s simplirwnei mporeis n t afiseis k n kaneis ena neo bima se kainouria monopatia ts zwis...min m prokaleseis n eksafanisto den thelw n s pligwsw....anoixe t ftera s k ela n petaksoume mazi .......s fwnazw s agapaw me osi athow psixi exw....

skorpismena xamogela

i alitheia einai pws panta mou arese na blepw tous anthrwpous na xamogelane...

mou arese na blepw panta poso eutuxismenos noiwthei enas anthrwpos otan ton koitaw sta matia k xamogelaei..

panta m arese na prokalo me tis kiniseis m kai ta logia mou na kanw enan anthrwpo na xamogelasei...

skeftomai pws kapoies fores to xamogelo aksizei ola ta plouti tou kosmou ...to xamogelo antiprosopeuei sxedon ola ta thetika sunaisthimata enos anthrwpou ...ton erwta,tin agapi,tin prospatheia,tin niki,tin dunami,to kouragio,to kainourgio....ma akoma kai kati na paei straba stin zwi mas to xamogelo tha mas kanei na skefigoume apo auti tin skepsi oso ton dunaton grigorotera....

latreuw na blepw ton baptistira m 3 xronwn agoraki na ksekardizete sta gelia otan apla tou kanw mia apli asteia grimatsa....i otan apla metrame os to 3 kai kanoume to aeroplanaki....mia apo tis omorfoteres stigmes tis zwis mou einai otan tha kanw nazia stin agapimeni m giagia kai tha me parei agkalia kai tha m gelasi krufa to noiwthw apo to zesto xeri tis pou xaideuei tin plati m....

ena apo ta omorfotera xamogela pou exw gnwrisei einai tis adelfis mou kai tis ksadelfis mou tis mikris kai tis megali pou otan tous kanw kati pou tous ikanopoiei mou rixnoun ena paixnidiariko xamogelo....otan exw na dw tis files m poli kairo xamogelaw apo eutuxia otan pinoume stin paralia ton kafe mas k leme t foititika mas nea.....

episeis ena apo ta pio simantika xamogela pou exw gnwrisei kai agapw einai to xamogelo pou exei to agori m...latreuw na xazeuw tis fwtografies pou m xamogelaei....agapaw tin stigmi pou tha t pw na m xamogelasi stin fwtografiki mixani kai tha minei ekei to xamogelo ekeinis tis stigmis..ma kleinontas ksexasa na anafero to xamogelo tis miteras kai tou patera mou otan thaumazoun kathe mikro kai megalo katorthoma stin zwi m....

H alitheia einai pws to xamogelo mporei na kriftei pantou se kathe stigmi tis zwis sou,se kathe oneiro tou mellontos kai tou parontos einai sunaisthima pou prepei na xarizeis aploxera kai na to zeis....oneiro gluko kai trufero kathe xamogelo mikrou megalou theati tis zwis tis kathe xamogelastis autis zwis...